New Rules

I've been trying to fall asleep for the past four hours.  However, I cannot until I get my new set of rules down on (electronic) paper.

I am still only going to consume 2-300 calories per day Monday through Friday.

I still must consume only what I provide for myself.

Once I eat through my most recent set of purchased groceries, I will only consume the same set of things per day for the week.  For example, the first week of the month, I will only consume the same set of foods Monday through Friday.  Then the second week of the month, I will only consume the same set of foods Monday through Friday.  So on and so forth.  This will eliminate the spoiling of perishables as they waste away in my fridge and allow me to avoid the anxiety and confusion about what to pack for lunch each day.

I am only going to consume one thing per meal.  For example, an apple counts for breakfast.  A yogurt counts for lunch.  A bag of popcorn counts for dinner, etc.  The only time I will "double up" on food items is when I eat cottage cheese which I will accompany with cucumber or six slices of turkey which I can have either with mushrooms or artichoke hearts.  I will also try not to double up on a food group in any one given day.  For example, if I have a bread product for breakfast such as a rice cake, I must have either a dairy, fruit, or vegetable for lunch.  If I have a fruit for breakfast, I can have a bread product or dairy for lunch, etc.

I am going to start exercising twice daily.  An exercise DVD in the morning and jog on the treadmill at the gym for a half hour in the evenings.

Saturdays will be my binge/purge day where I allow myself a treat.  I am going to try to keep binge days to one food group (i.e. breakfast foods such as muffins and pancakes, sweets such as cheesecake, icecream, or cookies, "meals", or chip/snack items.

Sunday will be my "fast" day.  Therefore, I will make up for my Saturday binge and take laxatives Saturday night and shit my brains out Sunday to atone for my missteps and cleanse for the upcoming week.

To review....

Monday through Friday one food item per meal from a different food group which must equate to 2-300 calories.

Strength training routine in morning and cardio in evenings.

Saturday is binge/purge day.

Sunday is laxative/fast/cleansing day.

Now I can relax and rest easy. 

I am weighing in at 100.2 pounds tonight although this morning I was 97.7.  I think my scale is broken because I use it too often.  I'm not sure.  This weekend I did pretty good...Saturday no food.  Sunday a mushroom, a bite of a lavash wrap, pinch of cabbage, and today two skinny sugar-free lattes and a grilled chicken greek salad (I caved).  I think the fasting this weekend totally messed with my metabolism and has made me gain weight.  My weight loss has stalled and I am retaining everything, including water which has swelled my extremities.  I am so looking forward to beginning this week and sticking fast to my new rules.  This will surely hold me accountable, alleviate stress and anxiety, allow me to plan ahead, avoid deprivation, and lose weight.  My goal is to be 95 by the end of this week.  Wish me luck.

Oh, and no more coffee in the morning.  Only tea if I so desire something.  :)